Our fate

On call again !! kesian khaira..ummi selalu tinggalkan khaira overnight. That’s why ummi doesn’t mind if u want to breast feed until now..eventhough you are already 1 year ++ , dah ada gigi.. selalu bite my nipple and it’s really tired to breastfeed you but i enjoyed it.Bagi ummi, itu adalah golden time for us and we always fell asleep together... :-)

Hari ni dah 3rd ramadhan but ummi still unable to perform tarawikh prayer..i felt a bit difference...before this we have a maid to look after you and i’ll go to surau for tarawikh..but now ummi have to look after you and abi will go to surau alone. Ummi kena ingat..........menjaga anak juga dianggap beribadah..

Khaira..ummi have to made decision to further my study but i'm really don’t know what to do..sometime i feel like i’m enjoying doing anaesthesia but sometime not..It’s ‘not’ because i have to do call and i can’t meet you for 24H. Bagi ummi, ummi perlu tgk anak ummi walau dalam sehari pun..rasa macam khaira terabai sgt bila tak dapat jumpa khaira within 24H.

But abi is really doing a good job....he manage to take care of you..thanks to Allah..giving khaira a good father. Sebelum ni, walaupun ada maid, Khaira tak pernah tidur bersama maid even waktu ummi on call. Itu polisi ummi dan abi. Seharian ummi dan abi tinggalkan Khaira dengan maid, rasa guilty sangat bila waktu malam nak biarkan Khaira tidur bersama maid.

For the whole ramadhan..i’ll try my best, to do a lot of ibadah..dan berdoa untuk keluarga..untk anak..Tuan Khaira Aisya..

I hope my lovely daughter will be a good muslimah, anak yang solehah..semoga Allah pelihara khaira dari segala kejahatan manusia dan ummi doakan khaira jadi anak yang pandai dan bahagia dunia akhirat.